Why in gods damned name do I have to much power.
I wouldn’t mind the power if I seriously had something to use it for.
So this week.
Don’t ask me about the government between my parents and the news, the failing health system and just about everything else we are now at the business end of the end of the world.
And I hhave decided that while it was semi fun I no longer care for it.
Its december and christmas mode.
My mind refuses to switch to christmas mode.
Every time I wake up I seem to be on edge and wandering what to do.
Yesterday I went to matakana with my lot to see a few friends.
We went to a nice place where the women talked about life and the men talked about the state of life as they currently see it.
I do agree with them to some point but being they are the old guard a solution aint something I care for.
To do nothing aint good and anyway while its never ideal we need o handle this maori thing now rather than later.
We aren’t making a good show of it but we may as well try now even if it does fail.
At least we tried.
And of course wandering round the place we find a lot of local staff all over the place in the eateries and other places.
A lot of them maori, just like us not involved most likely in the shit that a few components seem to be.
Now lets get it straight the english weren’t the nicest people but neither were all, there are always those wanting to spoil it and every race has its dark past.
I just fear that in the attempt to try to normalise we are repeating the mistakes of old.
In other news I got an email about job and replied to it.
Nothing back but we will wait.
They obviously don’t mind when they run so yeah that.
Of course maybe I am like that because of where my life is.
Within the next month or so I will be an uncle with the duties and extras that come with it.
My family all at home and a new chapter in my life.
True its one of maybe 3 more chapters.
Maybe the end to the golden years.
A lot of interesting questions are asked about the breakfast table of late, ie would you ever go to space.
My answer is sure why not.
Family say its dangerous but I say nothing holding me here.
My lot of cause say the family.
I do have a loving family, friends, a structured existance.
However while 20 years ago I would be happy here, and even more another 15 before that, I’m done living life or at least this life.
If I get the chance to go to the next world I’m going.
Before I really kick it I want a really epic adventure something to write a book about.
Yeah I have traveled a lot and I know a lot are caught in this crazy world that would like to do the same but its been at least 4 or more years since I actually switched off from everything.
I mean I didn’t take the laptop, I didn’t really do much with my phone.
I forgot the world existed outside.
The last time I did that was in bali.
I know I will be going on another holiday next year but I really want to switch off and get out of it.
Maybe its time to fire up my recordings again.
On the other side it appears its getting sunny.
I think today I am seriously going to try to get a break from at least the house.
I thought I wouldn’t but if it continues to continue to be fine today I may try to do that.
May even try to see what is on tv and have a propper go at it.
Anyway time to get breakfast.
Thats the message I’d like to say to the weather right now.
According to latest reports we may get a little break but its going to be pretty stormy and bat shit stupid for the rest of the month.
This means a lot of stupidness going forward.
Another thing to note is that after getting streams for munday I decided to look only to find except for 1 which I just listened to being the latest one that everything I thought I didn’t hear I have heard.
On one hand that means, yaaay! I have absolutely fuck all to do tomorrow for tomorrow at least.
Of course the question then comes, “what the fuck do I do now!”
Seriously I really hate asking that question.
Now don’t get me wrong I have removed a lot of stress by well not having the extra folders.
Ears are ok and I wore a set of phones today to play a little game.
However I really shouldn’t play with to much noise at medium or so volume.
Then running headsets full of said noise in my ears is a thing I do in winter not fuckmer.
Yes welcome to fuckmer where it acts like its not exactly spring and not summer.
If you don’t want to swear then fakemer.
But call it what you will I am not in a good mood about it.
Its supposed to be hot.
And I am supposed to sit on my nice out door chairs, think fuck all, and do the same and not care the same.
Summer for me aint just bbqs and sosages but where time runs and runs, and its all happy and no one cares.
Thanks to covid, the government, the state of the world and such I have always looked at my watch looking for the next thing and my mind is all over the place.
Everyone is playing christmas in the shops, but due to the apocolipse my brain aint even in christmas mode.
This weather aint helping.
Thank god for double glasing else I’d have to act like it was winter.
I want summer to truely appear.
So this week end involved well black friday shopping.
I now fully can appreciate the fact jono going to the foodshow and spending large.
Aunt and myself went to glenfield mall, had coffee and spent a load on things.
I got coffee and I also had dinner at night on saturday being japanese.
I spent 50 bucks this week and only 15 of which was on myself.
The rest was dinner and coffee.
Aunt has had issues with her guts and them protesting something brootal so she has been doing things about this.
On saturday another storm and they flared up yet again.
It semi fined up but we couldn’t even do the beach.
We managed to view the new dutch store in milford and I got things.
I managed to watch tv again at night.
Its quite lonely by myself, especially at night.
Today was destined to be one of these days.
With aunt sick I decided I’d just have a quick lunch then promptly fuck off home so I wasn’t a bother.
That diddn’t happen.
What did was Ryan asking me and aunt to lunch.
I had a double chicken burger with double cheese and tomatoes with shoestrings mind you and ice coffee.
Then I went to his house which he has just had carpeted and is in process of moving fernature.
We drank tea and combucha while watching a soccer match on sky sport replay which he brought just to watch the fifa world cup.
Of course the sneaky bastard kept trying to get me into eating more caralina reaper chips.
I mean there is hot and then there is like nuclear waste hot.
I can take nukes but when its like afterwards effects and so hot they don’t taste of anything bar heat well thats my line.
If I don’t enjoy it I’m not eating it.
Ryan seems to not have issues but he is in a different class to me.
And no I’m not upgrading.
You americans can keep your hot food I’ll just stay asian which is hot enough.
Ok excluding mexican which is mostly fine and most indian.
Soccer for me is really slow, I’ll take rugby any day.
Tomorrow I have one of dad’s friends round for coffee and do my usual monday wrap.
No idea what I will do in the afternoon though.
The only other thing that has happened is my desk cooler is dead.
Not a huge issue but I do want it back.
In reality, the cord was only just reaching the usb port and well was at its extent for well ages.
So yeah another fan for me, and maybe a little extention cord.
Wednesday there is a funeral, no I am not going to it and I’m not telling the general public because apart from everything else the person is rarely mentioned on the blog.
It does mean though that I will have one of those blank days.
At this stage its not going to be exactly fine so it will be one of those really blank days if you catch my drift.
Tuesday I don’t know.
I may bite the bullet and walk the muther.
Even though I will be going to places and getting bored stiff while women talk.
Little else is planned this week.
Ok maybe there is something.
Friday sees us all out with friends for dinner and on the 16th, another friday the same.
2 days before that its update day again.
So lets see what early christmas bugs we get.
Still waiting for job.
Really starting to wander if they are actually interested.
I will probably wait till the last week in december then just not bother.
Seriously wish they tell me if they have enough people.
There is also another job and since its stopped advertising who knows.
It is a global one so maybe I don’t get that.
Still both jobs looked really good.
Oh well thats life.
Haven’t said much but round the week of the 20th of december I will be officially closing down on contracts.
I will remain closed till june of next year.
This is mainly due to 2 small hollidays in february the first being taking advantage of the deal I got with my chairs in early february.
The second happens near the end of the same month with the art decco festival.
In mid march to mid april I will be going on a road trip with the family.
On january I will have a new nefew so yeah its all full on.
According to aunt jono aint even online.
The last I heard from family that have access to his facebook is he hasn’t even been posting.
The last I heard from friends is that he has been seen out and about.
He is not talking to anyone though.
The last I heard was he was having communications issues which probably will get fixed during christmas.
Trouble is I have a lot of time to burn.
Had a lot of time to burn.
At least till the weather goes back to what it should be.
Life is changing though.
For example my eyes and my head do not like a screen.
So the days of me spending time on a pc all day long, headset on ears blasting the tunes are probably over for a little.
With both my parents retiring or almost completely retired I plan to spend as much time outside as I can even when the weather gods are in a baaaaad moood!
At least thats what I want to do.
Oh well, another entry to this pointless thing which is just the dumping of the current layers of nonsensical junk in my brain.
At some point I will post something world shatteringly reasonable.
Then again the last time that happened was almost 3 years ago.
Oh well, another week I guess.
Well its been wet and stupid windy all week.
Most of my outside plans are just not going to happen now.
Today its supposed to be black friday sale looking day and maybe an extra thing or so.
Tomorrow I don’t know.
Sunday, to be honest I don’t know but I plan to probably unless I go out with bro not to be out for long as people will appear sunday.
Not much this week.
No work, but ordered some updated price lists for the equipment shop on rnzfb so thats nice.
Got a few chip folder uploads and a few extras to.
Ears got cleaned and a new service plan put in place hopefully 4 months is enough time.
Also got a propper cleaning plan for ears, no water anywhere and well that.
Watched cooks on fire last night and its a darn good show to be honest.
I have no idea what I will do tonight, but it appears judging by things happening today that I should be able to actually do things.
Loads of resession crazyness, and crime is up.
Its another step in the maori takeover nonsense my dad keeps bleeting about.
I don’t know what to think but the entire world is in apocolipse mode.
Everyone is out at the beach hop in wangamata so its just well if you watch the home alone series thats me suplimented with aunt that is.
Its a week before summer and its not even ready to do much at all.
Anyway unless something earth shattering happens with my jobs which I am still waiting for thats all this week.
Welcome to another week and such.
Firstly, went to the museum for lunch on thursday and had friends yesterday and will have some family today.
Also had bro and sister in law last night.
Had to change ear appointment to the 6th but as I managed to sort out a boil it didn’t seem to be a problem.
Currently, I have issues, merfy, I’m going to murder you!
Seriously, yesterday it was the left ear and this morning it seemed to clear, now its the right.
True I am paranoid cleaning my ears and doodling round but still this really doesn’t put me in a good mood.
Mum and such are going away at the end of next week for a few days and I had some plans.
Now those plans will probably include sitting on my ass because can’t do anything with blocked ears.
At least its the right ear not the left but still its a problem
I also did some wordpress work for a site I work with and have signed up to a couple jobs.
Hopefully things clear before they appear else I will have to kiss those good bye and these are actually good massive jobs with reasonable chunks of time to do and massive payouts.
I just bypassed 2 more jobs which granted were not what I wanted but I can’t do much more than get my work out the way.
I will post back probably later.
Went out for dinner with a cousin and had curry then came back and experienced the shock of the hottest global chip.
Going out later on to town, also just uploaded my breu playthrough to the usual places.
Well a little has happened.
After that week with the homeshow we went to coatsville market last sunday and got the chairs.
It rained a little but otherwise was fine.
There is a lot of food and other stuff at the market so yeah that.
More updates this week, went out with a friend on wednesday.
Spent the majority of this week with aunt on christmas shopping at various places and got my presents all in the bag.
Weather has continued to not be good bar a couple days or half days.
Haircut this monday and ears at the end of the month.
Still waiting for job and have requested an update.
Got my reassignment to dolphin for the next test cycle hope my synth features are included.
Little else to say, so laters.
Well for a change I actually have something to write about this week instead of the usual ramble.
Updates did happen, aunt’s bathroom and such continues with some drama of course.
Its helloween, there are the usual government this and that going on.
My alergies are really bad and my ears have decided to block ahead of schedual and I need a haircut.
But thats just my life aint it.
No you don’t want to read about my boring life today.
Yesterday I went to the home and garden show and well we looked round all over the place.
We spent 150 dollars on well everything from olive oil and salad dressing to jars of this and that getting all sorts of things along the way.
We even saw a 3 seater electric bike.
It rained of course and I didn’t bring a coat so got wet.
Had ryan and sally about for dinner as usual.
Since its sunday in america apart from 1 podcast online I actually don’t have anything I need to listen to today.
No idea what will happen.
As I said I have my issues and over the next couple weeks have to deal to those.
I have a job probably next week which will earn me some serious dough in a form of a gift card probably farmers.
I have at least 3 things I want to spend on it already and may only get 1 of them.
Christmas is appearing and a lot of that sort of things has gone on in little bits and bobs.
I am due to start thinking at least of what I will be putting in my long hall email to the various people I have on my list.
If you are the 2 people that actually get this you know who you are.
My blog contains my current life or at least the bits I deem important enough to put down.
Next year right now for example we are tracking towards the art decco in napia and shortly followed by a 6 week romp in the south island.
More covid waves are appearing though.
No one is saying what they want though.
With all restrictions vertually off, fact is I don’t know if that would return to whatever.
Masks are off in most settings bar busses which is by choice and medical practices.
People are recommending masks if in a crouded spot or well if you are in a medical place or on the buss.
Hardly any blocks bar medical where you must wear a mask.
People are advocating boosters and venting but no one is saying what they want.
The experts blustered at the start but who knows.
I am still skeptical though if the government will honor their own laws and I fully expect a full on lockdown either by christmas or next year somehow.
I mean I really hope that things continue but who knows.
With things pushed to weekly updates you can kind of push back the war for a little.
Becides with the russia and now the situation in china I fear for our race.
The us aint that stable either trump included.
I know that one thing’s for sure.
There will be war, one of the wars we avoided in the 1960s.
It will happen.
We know its gona.
Just wish we get it over with along with the environmental stuff going on so we can all addapt and survive if thats our ultimate
end that is.
Oh well another day of auckland wetness coming up.
Seriously I was going to have a different title but yesterday my dad had to retrieve something from my bag.
I had to tidy up, sure I had things I didn’t need but he then insisted in mucking round with everything in my bag including my wallet which I really need to put cash in.
He told my bag was bulky.
Maybe it is but the reason it is is half the stuff in there is maybe needed the rest weell to be honest to stop me forgetting stuff well.
Anyway while a few things got handled I spent part of yesterday reloading the pack so it actually was back to normal.
When he asked me to tell him how good he was I said, tidy your own house first mate.
Seriously, I don’t go on about his house and if he never looked at my bag that wouldn’t be an issue.
Seriously, leave my fucking bag alone.
Little has happened this week bar the usual updates.
Friday’s art thing was interesting.
Though a lot of information, far to much to really put all down.
Mexico is an interesting place.
Its like a volcano that isn’t quiet, like our white island really, keeps erupting.
Interesting people there to but yeah to much info and far to much light for my eyes even with glasses.
Speaking of glasses I am tempted to buy the 80% bluelight units for kicks.
They are only 30 bucks.
There are 20 % ones to.
Went to uncle al yesterday, and delivered my bits for aunty wendy though never got online.
Went to an irish pub and had a really good bit of fish and chips.
Good thick batter and nice fish.
The chips were obviously home made and the dressings being olive and the rough salad were really good as well as the cider.
Then I went back for tea, camio creams and toffee pops which I hardly have these days.
Aunty theresia got back from wellington this week and got me a small chocolate which was nice and some apple crumble tea 2 tea which I will try later.
Went to aunt yesterday and did some work and plan to hit the shops today and do random things.
The family seem to be getting into the lets lose weight bregade, mr and ms eat less because you are fat thing.
Yeah I know I am a little fat but put it in prospective please. Simply put, you have lives or had lives.
I have a life but its never been the normal life.
I don’t go on about your lives or my empty, pointless life that much.
I don’t have a real job, I will probably never have a family, and because I am disabled a few things are closed to me.
So I think its time to commit suiside.
Thats my life.
I don’t talk about my life and in fact have accepted most of it.
So fuck off and let me enjoy what is mine, ok be it within reason.
You don’t get me messing with your lives and my life sucks and is not worth living if I really thought about it, which is why I don’t.
With that being said, I just work here right?
I know no one reads this blog even though I am not even making any real reasons to keep it out of the public, I don’t have anything to hide here.
At least today will be hot and mum walks with caren the one with a load of things up with her, another mrs healthyness not realy.
I won’t say I couldn’t give a fuck, because part of me does which is while my life is semi pointless I have accepted that so its not a problem.
What is a problem is if people try to doodle with what I have left.
And while within reason for some well who knows.
Just like I don’t go on with the governmental dramas right now because I really have almost no understanding.
With that done, I am going away.
Small note to say today I just got windows 10 22h2.
Its the most uninteresting update.
I can’t use wpa3, there are no extras and it just works without screwing my settings.
Also codec and java updates.
But yeah, another little update installed.
At least there isn’t any breakages in this thing.
This friday I go out and muck round with friends then family on saturday.
Mum wants to do stuff tomorrow and I should be going to see mr hill today.
Sunday is usually my standard walk with mum, but at the same time I do have work to do with aunt because I need to load updates.
Nothing is planned for the rest of today.